The Past Week

Well... I promised I will write more often and lo! and Behold! I have to have road blocks.... My kids messed up my Comp and just got it repaired and lost all the information in the process... and then again some unavoidable circumstances.... Mom got hospitalized for food poisoning and stayed with her in the hospital to take care of her.....

Ah! these hospitals... I hate them... right from the ambiance to the smell... My Mom's stayed there for three nights and two days and so did I.... And she since she had lost a lot of body fluids she was on IV.... and let me tell you not at all a pleasant... to look at your mum being poked with needles.... The blood clotted in her right hand and the liquid medication wasn't passing through her hand was swollen and they had to change it to the other hand.... They were not able to find the vein and it got pretty painful for her... But she's back now still getting her strength back from the ordeal....
P.S: The only time I liked the hospital was when I was there to get my babies:)

On the other hand since I was staying with mum I had to send the kids of with my husband and this was the first time I stayed away from the kids and vice versa and to my astonishment the were absolutely enjoying themselves..... Guess, nobody to discipline them...

The past week had been emotionally exhausting......

Showing off your blog..

It's been quite a while since I have posted something.... Well, thanks to the summer vacation and the kids being at home... The only useful thing having done is keeping the kids entertained... and juggling from mom's place to mine... the whole of the vaction has gone by in doing this..... 

Recently a friend of mine has got very interested in making her blog look interesting... and she has got me in the grind too.. although I am not very savvy about these things I am trying to learn....

I have visited several blogs and I see that most of  them want their blogs to look different... unique... interesting and relate to their person..... Why does one go through the trouble to personalize their blogs... To make it look cool...   (I must say I am getting into the groove too... trying out different things and getting to know more..). We have websites and blogs on how to work on our blogs as well, Wow!

Like they say first impressions are the best impressions... the first impression of our blog the look and feel of it would draw more readers, is that it?.... Or, is the content more important... I say both have their own standings... What say?

Summer's

Chennai is a hot city, I had once heard someone say that the weather in Chennai is Hot, Hotter and Hottest...
Even our winter's are humid and sweaty, as a matter of fact we do not have winter at all, it's only the rainy season and that is mildly hot and humid. So we look forward for rainy season, as it's better than summers.

Inspite of having a tag of being one of the hottest cities in the South India, people still complain about the heat with the onset of summer, where ever you go you'll find the Woossh!! and Aaahhs!! followed by it's so hot, isn't it? Well, we know it's hot and it's high time we are used to the fact that it's not going to snow in Chennai ever... Might as well enjoy the summer.... Think about the good things the summer bring's along, the platforms are stacked up with watermelons, every fruit is available on the stalls... you can have loads of  Ice creams and no body stops you, the time of year you can have an ice cold can of pepsi and you don't fall sick.

Oh! I should go a little off track here....
I recently spotted a stall put up by a political party ( which ever party is irrelevent) distributing watermelon's, tender coconut  and other coolants for free.... That's a nice act of kindness for the poor lot I think... Or, a tactic to get more votes in the next election I can't say...;)

So, where was I, right.... Summer is a time for cotton's, holiday's, siesta, swimming pool and loads of fun... And now a days the trend of summer camps  is a bonus to keep the kids occupied..... The bright side of summer.

Random thoughts.....

I have been wanting to write for the past week.... I come up with something ..... and when I do sit down to write, I forget what I had been thinking about earlier.... My mind is clogged.... It's a mumbo jumbo of too many thoughts stirred together.... I am not able to come out of this state of mind..... perhaps it's because I am thinking too much..... too much about trivial issues..... I can't seem to stop thinking about too many things at a time.... each thought is shooting though my brain in all directions..... I am totally confused and  sometimes all this confusion is too much to take and all i want to do is scream.... but I can't even do that.... people will think I am crazy, if I start to scream for no reason.... *chuckles* I just imagined a scenario where I scream suddenly and the reactions of the people around me..... perhaps I would end up scaring them first......*chuckles again*  I am unable to do anything about this right now, so I might as well laugh about it.....

While I am unable to come up with anything sensible, I just thought I'll write about my state of mind itself....
Hoping to get out of this soon..........

Head on with dificulties

I had a disagreement with the principal of the school where I work....because of a misunderstanding created by a collegue....
I don't know why... and if it is the same with other people also......  I am faced with a lot of people in life who have a problem with me, although I am just being myself..... Or perhaps the truth is I take it too personally, and thus it affetcs me a lot.

As, it is my first job, and I have never been in a situation like this at work, where someone stabbed behind my back, and I am also blamed for take the stabbing... it's a first... now I want to clear my name...
I am thinking, why people do things like that, they act as your good friends, where as all the time, they are nurturing insecurity and jealousy with themselves and when the time is right, they stab you...

My husband says that's how the world is.... very very bad.... I don't know what to think... because that's what I have seen in my experience, when you are good to people, you never get goodness in return... the world is good only to people who are hypocrites... people who sing your praises in front of you and as soon as you turn your back bite you... it hurts me bad, makes me want to do bad to all those people who have done me wrong..... I want to take my revenge on them... then....

... Then....  I stop myself right on time..... What will I achieve by doing them wrong in return. Yes,  I am hurt right now, by the injustice of the world.... but, what will I achieve, may be some satisfaction to soothe the evil in me.... but other than that nothing...... What difference will there remain between me and the people who harm me.... if they are bad.... taking my revenge on them makes me bad too... and I don't want to go down to that level..... My rewards are with my Almighty.....

I want to achieve something in my life, and I must learn to face these difficulties head on... I am going to try and be a stronger person, starting now... and I am not going to let these small emotional endeavours stop me... after all this is what I wanted..... to face the world... to know the world and the different kind of people living in it..... I am not going to let a few bad apples stop me...

Life indeed would be dull if there were no such difficulties......... The big bad world here I come.....

Chaos on the Indian roads.

There is something about Indian roads and the Indian traffic......

We in India say that if you can drive in India, its a piece of cake to drive in any part in the world.....

We say this because driving requires loads of talent in this country.......

You should also know a little bit of telepathy...... read on to know why.....

For one, nobody and I mean nobody follows the rules..... you'll find people breaking them all the time..... Rules what rules.... they are for you, not for me.....

Everyday I am faced with this ..... and especially when you are a woman and driving..... the Men have a problem.... Its okay you can drive.... as long as its a small car...... but if they see a woman driving a big car... they have some serious ego problems..... Like today I was trying to get out of a junction with four roads.....{ its an odd junction off sorts.... well, with chennai, you'll always find odd junctions errupting from almost anywhere....} well getting back to the point.......One of the connecting roads, in the junction is a one way ,but who cares if its a one way..... there was a huge jam and  nobody had patience ... everyone wants to rush.... not that waiting for a couple of minutes is going to delay them much, but our country men are always in the race of being FIRST...... so, everybody in a rush to get out of the jam.... were making the jam even worse..... and I in the midst of it was patiently making my way out and I get bombared by other's for being patient.... I wanted to fight back but that would have made the matter worse..... it would have caused further more chaos so I thought the most sensible thing to do was to get away from there as soon as possible......

You can find this scenario in almost every other part of the city...... not just jams or impatient commuters...... you can find pedestrians, or motor cyclist, or cyclist poping out of nowhere on a high way.... or a main road, Auto rickshaw's just stopping in the middle of the road without warning.... (know why you need the telepathy) Public buses supposedly stopping at the bus stops.....but actually blocking the road causing further disruption to the flowing traffic.......
And the worst of all..... You drive minding your business..... and an Auto rickshaw driver... or a Motor cyclist whose attention is anywhere but on the road ahead..... comes and rams into your vehicle and then the man whose was enjoying looking at whatever that he was looking at  tells his sad story to the victim and takes money from the victim....... and moves on.... where else does this sort of thing happen...... I wonder.....

However, one thing is certain.....

 If you can drive in India............ You can drive in any part of the world........

Hand, you shall work away!

The past week has been pretty hectic for me.... My house maid fell sick..... and I had to do everything from laundry to dishes to cooking to keeping the house clean..........preparing breakfast for hubby dearest and kids..... dropping the kids off at school..... my work at school...... get back home do the dishes.... do the laundry..... lunch(somewhere in between)... clean the house......  prayer... pick up son from his school... pick up daughter from her school..... freshen them up...... make evening snack for them..... start cooking for dinner..... feed the kids.... check home work..... put them to sleep.... wait for hubby to get back home.... have dinner.... clean the dishes.... hit the bed.... My day starts at 5 am in the morning and ends around 11ish...... In between I survived the kids mad fights and a severe migraine attack....... Phew!

I was mad when I heard the maid wasn't coming, but then I calmed down and I decided to relish in housework.... and I actually find being busy quite comforting to the mind..... There's no time to think of any unwanted stuff..... and make yourself miserable..... Being busy..... occupied is a blessing in disguise..... I have started enjoying everything I do.....  and it seems less of a trouble..... Like the say "It's All in The Mind."

As I have been working overtime this past week.... The poem I had read as a teenager kept coming to my mind especially one line "But, hand, you shall work away!" I kept telling this to myself as I did my chores... One of my favorite poems of all time.... It is rather a song.......... from LITTLE WOMEN by Louisa May Alcott... here it goes.....

A Song From The Suds.....

Queen of my tub, I merrily sing,
While the white foam rises high,
And sturdily wash and rinse and wring,
And fasten the clothes to dry;
Then out in the free fresh air they swing
Under the sunny sky.

I wish we could wash from our hearts and souls
The strains of the week away,
And let water and air by their magic make
Ourselves as pure as they;
Then on the earth there would be indeed
A glorious washing day!

Along the path of a useful life,
Will heartsease ever bloom;
The busy mind has no time to think
Of sorrow or care or gloom,
And anxious thoughts may be swept away,
as we bravely weild a broom.

I am glad a task to me is given,
To labour at day by day,
For it brings me heath and health and hope,
And I cheerfully learn to say,

" Head you may think,
  Heart you may feel,
  But, Hand, you shall work away!"

Every human being is a miracle......

 I got this in mail today.... truly we are a miracle created by God!!

Our heart beats around 100,000 times every day. 

Our blood is on a 60,000-mile journey.

Our eyes can distinguish up to one million color surfaces and take in more information than the largest telescope known to man.
    
Our lungs inhale over two million liters of air every day, without even thinking. They are large enough to cover a tennis court.
 
Our hearing is so sensitive it can distinguish between hundreds of thousands of different sounds.
 
Our sense of touch is more refined than any device ever created.

Our brain is more complex than the most powerful   computer and has over 100 billion nerve cells.
  
We give birth to 100 billion red cells every day.
  
When we touch something, we send a message to our brain at 124 mph.
  
We have over 600 muscles.

We exercise at least 30 muscles when we smile
 
We are about 70 percent water.

We make one liter of saliva a day.

Our nose is our personal air-conditioning system: It warms cold air, cools hot air and filters impurities.

In one square inch of our hand we have nine feet of blood vessels, 600 pain sensors, 9000 nerve endings, 36 heat sensors and 75 pressure sensors.

We have copper, zinc, cobalt, calcium, manganese, phosphates, nickel and silicon in our bodies.
 

Learning to fly.......

I have always been scared, to do anything in my life..... Even as a child and an adolescent  I would be very hesitant to express how I feel to my parents..... I was lucky to have found good friends my solace in them...... anything from adolosent crushes to big time failures....... friends have always been there for me......
I have always wanted to do something with my life.... and just didn't know what..... I did number of varied courses, from multimedia to food processing to fashion designing to psychology, jumping from one feild to another.... then after marraige I shoved everything into a closet, with it the dream of achieving something..... this dream of achieving something has always been with me... and I never figured what?

Once married, my life started revolving around the domestic issues, mostly the kitchen politics with my mother in law and I became totally obssessed.... My life became miserable, I forgot what it was to live, cause my life became centered only around my mother in law. I was hopelessly running in all directions and all I ended up with, was a gigantic wall with no escape. A wall I had built around myself.... I had to break this wall.... I had forgotten to do things I enjoyed doing earlier, I forgot to appreciate things around me,  I forgot to thank God for the beautiful life He gave us, I wanted to die, I started wishing for death...... The only thought in my mind those days was to break free from everything..... I went through all this because I was scared, to face things in my life, scared to bring about the changes needed, scared to stand up for myself, scared of the outcome if I did....

Then, a day came after a series of events in my life, where I didn't want to take it anymore, when I didn't want to be scared anymore.... I had had enough of my fears.... I realized that the number one thing I had to break free from was my fear of everything..... I asked myself what is the worst thing that would happen to me if I reacted in a certain way, and to my surprice, the answer was very simple... no consequence was as worse as I had made it out to be in my head... The first thing I did was found a job for myself. I had never before worked in my life, I didn't know what a resume looked like, but I went ahead and made one.... I attended the interview and got the job, although, this is not what I want to do with my life. I had just broken that wall, where I had binded myself.... I had just given myself wings....... and am still Learning to fly.... there's more that I want to achieve, and I know now that I can.... Cause I am not scared any more..... Now things are a lot different..... I get so much support from my mom and my husband.... my friends have always stayed by my side.....though a cliched phrase, they are the wind beneath my wings.....

Mad Money.

What is it about people and money? I have always wondered about this..... There are stingy penny-pinchers and then there are people who have no control over their expences- Spendthrifts...... and then there are wise spenders, sensible ones, who spend where they have to and control when they should.....

The penny-pinchers are those who slog their whole lives to earn MONEY and don't enjoy it, neither do they let their children enjoy it, and one fine day, when they grow old......  a third person walks in and enjoys all of it...... and all they can do is sit and watch... perhaps grumbling about it a little....... but they don't change, they still don't spend on themselves..... they still remain their own stingy-self..... but they wonder if they have been unfair to their children......

Next in line are the spendthrifts, these people are what we call the "shopaholics" they just have to shop, shop and shop.... if they don't pay a visit to the super market or a mall atleast once a day, the world will collapse around them, every upset mood.....they shop, every happiness..... they shop.....  they just want to feel good about themselves they shop. Some of these kinds buy on impluse and follow it up with a guilt trip....

And the Wise- spenders....... I wonder how they do it........ It must take a lot to know how and when to spend and when not to.... or they are just plain smart....... sensible people.... well done wise-spenders keep it up.... we need to learn a lot from you.....

But my question was "What is it about people and money?", and I ask again....... To me it is just a peice of paper which is used to fulfill our necessities, but to a lot of people, that I've come across money is something extraordinary..... And these people give free advice to people like me..... The advice goes like this......" you should be more ambitious in life......... you should listen to any kind of non-sense people give you........ so what, in the end you are going to be rich, consider that......... Money is NOT a necessity, It is a Luxury blah blah blah" It just does not end....

I wonder how many would agree with this....... Certainly not me..... after listening to this free advice for sometime, I quitely plug in my Nokia express- music, to escape the torture........... :D

Red Day.

I work as a nursery school teacher, so we are having the colour day every monday....  And  today was the Red day.....  Each classroom decorated with the colour RED....... each teacher showcasing their unique talent. It was Raining Red every where.......
For my classroom I hung lots of red couloured objects like a car, an apple, a boat, a T -shirt, etc cut out from paper on to the ceiling..... It looked like a large mobile..... balloons stuck on the walls..... red cloth drapes hanging from the doors and windows.... Every child and every facilitator dressed in red....... We had the pictures taken, The kids coloured pictures in red....
Even though we see colours on a day to day basis, its somehow different to be surrounded by one particular colour, it changes your mood,..... It was lovely, somehow the colour red uplifts the spirit..... It creates an atmosphere of  festivity and it makes one feel special...... The appointment with Red was memorable..... hope to have different and equally fulfilling experince with other colours as well.....

An Ode to My Friend.

I am a fragment in your world. I dont know you anymore....
With other's its about them and me... with you its mostly about me rarely about you....
You have gone far ahead in your life..... faced many challenges... achieved many a success....
Somehow you have changed and different now from the person I have known you to be.....
I don't know you anymore......
Its a delight to see you soaring ahead.... connecting with different people.... making your mark in this world... but, I don't know you anymore....
I want to know you again..... like the way I used to know... the new you.... this different but amazing person you have turned out to be.....
I am a fragment in your world.... Let me know you again.......